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i'm good at lying, i'm good at being sarcastic too.and i'm so goddamn proud of it.
Saturday, December 26, 2009 but how much have i changed? do i like welcome this change? or is there even a change? coming-of-age questions that inevitably pop up in your mind as this period of reflection comes to a close. views and perceptions are inexplicably altered once you enter the workforce and are finally contributing to the country's economy as a working adult (though i am not one yet, age-wise). this xmas was.. just like any other xmas in singapore for the past 20 years. i didn't really celebrate it, just went out to chill with the volleyballers. discussed nonsensical topics. wasn't really talking and pondering over sensitive and serious issues (we kinda never do so haha). i wonder when will i ever get the chance to experience my IDEAL christmas. i've never been closed to fulfilling that ideality as well, even when i had the chance. kinda pathetic lol. i fucking hate pimples. |
Monday, November 30, 2009 i'm going to start work tomorrow, dec 1 tuesday. so, to see things in a very negative light, today's my last day of "freedom". then again, that's how things are like if i am very pessimistic lah. haha. at least it's not "last day as a civilian before i enlist" (think post-A-levels), or "last day of block leave" (think post-BMT). it's a new experience (: so far i've watched alot of Korean dramas/shows + broadened my iTunes library with my ever-expanding arsenal of Korean music. i've also attended one official Korean lesson thus far. life's been peaceful and relaxing, though to some extent, monotonous. but hey, i'm embracing it before getting caught up again in the maelstrom that is this life. oh and i've changed my handphone as well =D and i'm loving it. i call it chocolate love <3 LOL annyeonghi kaseyo! |
Sunday, November 8, 2009 recently i've been getting myself "koreanized" by watching lotsa korean videos/shows online. i'm currently watching this highly-rated and highly-recommended show called Beethoven Virus (haven't finished watching). for music lovers like myself, i really love this show (: quite touching. the theme song for the show, 들리나요 (Can You Hear Me) sung by the talented 태연 Taeyeon of SNSD, really evokes emotions when you listen to it, the effect further enhanced after you've watched the show. which makes me realised how ALOT of OST songs sound so much nicer after you watched the story/show related to it. somehow the lyrics and the melody seem to convey the intended emotions of the song better after you finally witness the story/show that the song is illustrating. or maybe it's just me, lol. Can You Hear Me - Kim Tae Yeon (Translated) Beethoven Virus OST Even though it hurts but a little, tears form My heart screams out If I pass in front of you, beside you You were my whole world I want only you But I can't breathe when I'm in front of you As if you weren't my destiny As if this was just a fleeting moment Next to you, who just let me go so easily I go closer to you step by step Although I cannot move at all Chorus: You make me restless, you make me cry Like a fool, like a child I want to just laugh it off instead The closer I get to you Although I get more scared I guess I cannot stop this love Why is it just my love that is late Why is it just my love that is hard Although I'm right in front of you, although I'm right beside you You were my whole world I see only you But when when I'm in front of you, I always look away As if you were my very last As if it were my very last moment Next to you, who just let me go so easily I go closer to you again step by step Although I cannot move at all Chorus: You make me restless, you make me cry Like a fool, like a child I want to just laugh it off instead The closer I get to you Although I get more scared I guess I cannot stop this love If even from a long distance I could look upon you That's what you call love If perhaps this yearning, this longing When it sounds, when it touches Please just act like you didn't know Although the closer I get to you, the more scared I get I guess I cannot stop this love beautiful <3 |
Tuesday, October 13, 2009 this is also the first post for this month, october, the penultimate month before ORD, the holy month of clearing leaves/offs/random medical appointments. besides last thursday, the only other days that i'll go to camp for this month are the final thursday and friday of october. it feels so, so good (: so what have i been doing? well, the usual stuff you do when you chill out: facebook, sleeping, watching shows, going out occasionally. with one special "event" that happened last friday: my first and last wisdom teeth operation. keyword: first and last. yup, i went under general anesthesia and whacked all 4 teeth at once. i heard you say ouch. well, it should be damn freaking painful but since i was under GA, i didn't feel anything literally. lol. oh and i was told by the nurses after i woken up that i had an asthma attack halfway through the operation O__O wow, what luck? i don't even remember the last time i had an acute asthma attack. speaking of asthma, apparently i have "exercise-induced asthma" after going for a lung checkup at NUH last month. and so, this condition will warrant me a downpes. yes, DOWNPES, something considered a holy grail for many NSFs. haha. the only flipside is that my condition will only render me temporarily downpes-ed, and not permanently. oh well. and, i got promoted to CFC too. corporal first class. not much difference actually, i don't really give a shit about rank except for the extra cash. but i do admit, the CFC does look nice =D like some Masonic all-seeing eye. ooh and i've just finished reading dan brown's latest thriller as well. The Lost Symbol. Freemasonry hoo-ha. expectedly epic novelisation again from the author (: soon, i'm gonna set some things in my life in motion as well. get a job, earn some money, be able to support myself more financially. start learning korean, value-add myself, elevate my usefulness/employability in the future. resume learning guitar? learn... cooking (lol)? brother's wedding this fri (: admittedly we're not the closest of brothers, but (sadly?) i've grown used to that. congratz to him. i used to end my blog entries with "XXX days to ORD~", but i've gotten past that point of eager anticipation for the magical day already. and i'm saying this in a good way (: |
Monday, September 21, 2009 but at least the night was rather fulfilling. met up with sarah ong and say tiong and chatted awhile. nice to catch up with them (: the way i'm describing the experience that night is very understated actually, coz i can't seem to put a word to it. a mixture of nostalgia, warm and fuzzy memories, with that coming-of-age mixed with a tinge of omg-i'm-so-old-already + out-of-place feeling in the school. haha. but it felt great coming back nonetheless. but frankly i don't know whether i'll return next year though. and for the first time in my life, i celebrated 2 birthdays on the same day. on sunday, yesterday. haha. happy birthday to the best CT-rep ever, and also happy 21st to one of my closest volleyball seniors i've known (: to top it all up, WE WON OUR "NOISY NEIGHBOURS" 4-3!!!! what an epic derby. these are the type of matches that showcase a champions' calibre; fighting back after a setback and never giving up. GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED~ and so, a deserved rest today (: and for the next few days! i'm only going to work on friday! 50 days and counting. which reminds me, i need to find a job... |
Thursday, September 17, 2009 just in a rather bad mood for now. pardon me. 50-odd more absolute days to ORD.. i forgot the actual number of days lol. well things don't sound so bad anymore already as i harbour that impending ORD thought lol. but sigh, it's just such a pity that this saturday can't turn out like last year did. coz it might just very well be the last time we play together as a team. the team that was bred all the way from secondary school to junior college, the team that almost didn't make it past as a team after secondary 2/3, the team that frankly, is quite lousy technically-speaking, but still managed to finally win something after so many years of disappointment and frustration (we lost so many games that some of us were actually numbed from the horrid feeling of losing badly), through perseverance determination and all things good, plus that little bit of luck. shucks. |
Monday, August 24, 2009 but suffering from withdrawal symptoms. lol. expected it though. sucking it up. so how was this trip... fun, definitely. but it feels more fun compared to last year, probably coz i went there as a veteran this time. i'm not so noob and rookie anymore, i know how stuff works and i see things in a different light. i feel more liberated. 1 year (or close to that) makes quite some difference. like last year, i went clubbing with the medical team on the 2nd night of RnR. my 2nd clubbing experience, also in taiwan. this time at a much more happening place, Luxy Nightclub. REALLY much more happening. so what exactly happened there? well, to put it simply, as us medics always say, what happens in taiwan stays in taiwan (: a bunch of first times for me this time round. and now i finally understand how people, especially guys, get addicted to clubbing. which brings me to something that i realise after coming back this time round. like last year, one of the main taiwan withdrawal symptoms suffered is.... getting used to looking at singapore girls again. this is because of the immense disparity in the looks/dress-up department between taiwan girls and singapore girls. hahaha. being in taiwan for 3 weeks and ogling at their pretty girls there (coupled with my clubbing experience this time round) is very unhealthy for the male psyche. lol. coz it raises our superficial expectations of a female mate to very high expectations, expectations that probably are quite hard to look for in this little country of ours. lol. the dilemna of a single singaporean male =\ |